sâmbătă, 26 iunie 2010

semispheres (translation)

semispheres floating
all that was yesterday
seemed perfect and grand
today is abject and broken
the curves are missing
and quickened steps
the wind is wispering
and the rain...water is swimming in water
the halves are sliding
wrongly glued
a hint of red
is crying in whimpers
the bustle is missing
i pull myslef
and hit with silence
till it hurts
and yet i can't feel
lunatic forest
tangled in hair
hides snakes
with dulled teeth
the world is melting
as in a painting of time
inert and yet
the scream
constricting my stomach
climbing famished up my esophagus
clutching my throat
and yet nothing can be heard
not even the brownian motion
i can feel it spreading through my vocal cords
the colors are vibrating
while i stride
i'm holding on to the umbrella
i'm saving myself
i'm watching myself
from the sky
from the trickling clouds
on the grey hills
i'm singing again
alongside the unknown
burning the pavement
with my anger
i speak
even i can't understand
i'm climbing stairs
and descending
for dark corners
of smoke
broken windows
so as to lose myself
in blunt shards
the unstuck semispheres
a part of a me
broken and abject


semisfere plutesc
tot ceea ce ieri
parea perfect si maret
astazi e doar meschin si frant
lipsesc rotunjimile
si pasii grabiti
sopteste vantul
iar ploaia...apa inoata in apa
gliseaza jumatatile
lipite gresit
o parere de rosu
plange cu scancete
lipseste forfota
ma trag
lovesc cu tacere pana doare
si totusi nu simt
padurea nebuna
incolacita-n par
ascunde serpi
cu dinti tociti
lumea se topeste
ca-ntr-un tablou de timp
nemiscat si totusi
care-mi strange stomacul
urcand infometat spre esofag
inclesteaza gatul
totusi nu se aude nimic
nici macar miscarea browniana
il simt raspandindu-se in corzile vocale
vibreaza culorile
in timp ce pasesc
ma tin de umbrela
ma salvez
ma privesc
din cer
din norii prelinsi
pe dealuri gri
cant din nou
odata cu necunoscutul
ard pavajul
cu mania mea
in pasareasca
nici eu nu inteleg
urc scari
si cobor pietris
colturi intunecate
de fum
geamuri sparte
sa ma pierd in cioburi
semisfere dezlipite
parte dintr-un mine
frant si meschin

sâmbătă, 19 iunie 2010

rays of sunshine

I've had some visions, time of late
always dreaming conversations right before I go to bed...
rays of sunshine playing through my hair
remembering your eyes
i fall into the hole, blackest corner
of my heart
i'd take you back into my arms
hold on tight again tasting every breath
after the pain
i could forget all for just a touch
of your smile
so...should I?
risk again, pray again, hope again?
rays of sunshine burning the corner...

rays of sunshine playing through my hair
while each day I pass by your window
and wonder whether
you would ever talk to me again?
will I ever understand, hear the words forming
on what were your sweetest lips
whether some years from now
we'd both regret the lack of courage to forget.
just buy a coffee and sit on a bench
remember me...i'm not dead yet
these tears are only water sparkling through
rays of sunshine

rays of sunshine fighting clouds
while i'm too afraid
to be pushed and pulled and judged
too scared that i could
if i had to...
keep telling myself I tried everything
searching for wisdom
finding it nowhere
someone tell me how to give up
I haven't learned how
I need to brush your cheek once more, imprisoning
rays of sunshine

rays of sunshine clutched in my fists
you knew I'd be all or nothing
you knew people sometimes get hurt
did it had to be me...does it have to be you?
I keep hoping i'd stop hoping
keep swearing my way through everyday
keep burning fires for you
has the sea covered us?
are you drowning or ar you just shipwrecked...
i wish I'd hear you play again
i wish I'd hear you laugh in rain
and all my dreams and hopes and pains
just fade away
in sunshine rays

marți, 8 iunie 2010

my bones which burn

my mind turns 'round and 'round
to a hideous carnival
fighting for a breath of tainted air
and pray that today never ends
for tomorrow would be just the same...
my bones which burn

i would rather forget
how to walk, how to write, how to chant
the smell of the air after it rains
the carress of the wind in the palm of my hand
than have this pain i can't explain
my bones which burn...

make me into a tree
fire me up into dirty-red charcoal
when i try to run into nothingness
when i need arms around me
holding on so tight i'd learn to ignore again
my bones which burn...

is it just a nightmare or was there ever a time
to really smile
every single new morning
waking up to give grace for the sunshine
in someone's eyes who had learned to drown
my bones which burn...

i have all this music now inside my soul
but it means nothing
i can't play it out loud
not if i could lay down and sleep on the paveway
not when i'd just scream in terror at the ache of
my bones which burn...

wish there was a universal switch
to tune down the swirling images
that i don't want to remember
the mirror and the pillow
the water i pull myself under
my bones which burn...

i want to give my heart away again
whole and perfect as a shiny new toy
yet who would fill out the holes
drilled deep by the years of beating
the need to break out in tears every once in a while and
my bones which burn...

i hold my own hand and embrace my body shivering
i wake alongside my corpse as i frown in the light
of those kissing on my tomb
searching again for what was never there
for the new ultimate cure no one will ever find
another lie to inject into my bones which burn

joi, 3 iunie 2010


da-mi doar ocazia sa ma dezgusti
boraste cuvinte
mitraliaza patriarhatul
urla-ti frustarea de pe gard
corb orbit, mitocanit, perseu
fie-ne tarana usoara
la revedere, adio, papa
gri tacit
scorbura putrezita
sa tai crengile copacului
am invatat
sa castig
orbit de gand
si pornit pe drumul slavei
purtat de vant
sorbind sangria

culege fructele uscate
eva a murit
pleoapele s-au stins
si peste gradina sacra
cu cenusa
cerul plans
a nins
fulgii desprinsi
din parul tau
naste-ne-am din nou
intr-o lume
din care
sa fug
sa-nchida usa-n urma mea

da-mi doar ocazia sa ma dezgusti
comenteaza televizorul
hai sa disecam sport
cu spor
starurile porno
stinge tigara
cu polizorul
firava indentatie
digital si spornic
imi cuprind creierul cu palmele
inca o noapte de nesomn
fiecare piatra de moara
si perla aruncata-n mocirla
ma deghizez
in dezgustare