rays of sunshine

I've had some visions, time of late

always dreaming conversations right before I go to bed...

rays of sunshine playing through my hair

remembering your eyes

i fall into the hole, blackest corner

of my heart

i'd take you back into my arms

hold on tight again tasting every breath

after the pain

i could forget all for just a touch

of your smile

so...should I?

risk again, pray again, hope again?

rays of sunshine burning the corner...

rays of sunshine playing through my hair

while each day I pass by your window

and wonder whether

you would ever talk to me again?

will I ever understand, hear the words forming

on what were your sweetest lips

whether some years from now

we'd both regret the lack of courage to forget.

just buy a coffee and sit on a bench

remember me...i'm not dead yet

these tears are only water sparkling through

rays of sunshine

rays of sunshine fighting clouds

while i'm too afraid

to be pushed and pulled and judged

too scared that i could

if i had to...

keep telling myself I tried everything

searching for wisdom

finding it nowhere

someone tell me how to give up

I haven't learned how

I need to brush your cheek once more, imprisoning

rays of sunshine

rays of sunshine clutched in my fists

you knew I'd be all or nothing

you knew people sometimes get hurt

did it had to be me...does it have to be you?

I keep hoping i'd stop hoping

keep swearing my way through everyday

keep burning fires for you

has the sea covered us?

are you drowning or ar you just shipwrecked...

i wish I'd hear you play again

i wish I'd hear you laugh in rain

and all my dreams and hopes and pains

just fade away

in sunshine rays